Bigger Picture Moments: On Vocation

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A year ago, I was working nearly full time and longing to be a stay at home mom again. I always want what I don’t have. Because, while I am so happy to be home with my kids, I also secretly wish that I got a paycheck every two weeks for what I do.
I worked at a hospital. It was hard work. I worked long hours.
The good thing about working at a hospital is that you feel like you are really helping someone. Even if your “help” is a kind word to a family member, it is still help. So, beyond that paycheck, I came home with the feeling that I was making a difference somehow.
Fast forward to today. I am once again a stay at home mom, to six wonderful children. Some would say I am living the dream, and I am.
I am so happy to be able to drive my kids to and from school every day and I am available to cheer them on at sporting events and concerts. I don’t miss any of our daughters’ firsts. I am able to make nutritious meals for us, and I have the economy of time to save us money  at the grocery store.
At the same time, there is not the automatic feeling that I am making a difference.
I feel selfish.
I am doing something that I want to do.
I enjoy meal planning and baby cuddling, and reading to kids, and even diaper changing.
Certainly then, my vocation now is less honorable than it was less year when I was at a hospital 36 hours a week actually helping people.

Even though I step outside my home a lot less today then I did a year ago, I am still serving my neighbor.
My family is my closest neighbor.
I care for the seven neighbors who live under my roof, and the world is a better place for it.
I care for the Rev. and meet his needs for food, and clothing and comfort, and then he can devote more of his time to serving our neighbors in North Bismarck.
I care for our six children, and they can go about their daily lives and fulfill their vocations as sons, and daughters, and students and friends.
These people need me to make their landings softer!
Sure, if I did not make them dinner, they would be able to manage somehow. Eventually they may even find a way to make sure those meals are nutritious. But that would take away from the vocations they are already fulfilling. If they have to forage for food, they have less time for homework and rest.
Yes, mother, your job is important. Even when you feel invisible. Even when you feel that  your life is a version of the movie Groundhog Day.
Everyone has a mother, for better or for worse. I want to live to be the better mother. Some days I will fail, but my goal is to have more good days than bad, so that when my children are grown, they too appreciate the vocation of motherhood.
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Written by Dakotapam
I'm a Lutheran pastor's wife and mom to six kids, including young adult sons down to 8-year old twin daughters. My life is sometimes normal, and sometimes crazy; but through it all, I know that I am blessed! Some people say that I have my hands full, I prefer to call it living life with both hands full, and I love it!