Frustration
Here is a picture of Emily yesterday with my cousin Kristen.
I’m a little frustrated. Last night when I left the nicu, I had signed papers and was preparing for Miss Emily to come home this morning.
Unfortunately, after a day under the bili lights, her bilirubin levels only went down a smidge. So the doctor wants her in for another day of phototherapy. I’m not going to lie, I came this. close. to bawling when the doctor met me at the door with that news this morning. And then, I feel like a jerk. Things could be so much worse. I have two healthy babies. One just has some issues to work through, that are minor compared to how she was minutes after her birth 4 days ago. And then I consider how small she would have been had she been born two and a half weeks earlier. So I’m frustrated.
This little Emily has always been the twin who has caused a bit of concern. Never anything major, but she was always the one we were worried about for growth, and she has never been super cooperative during ultrasounds. Really, in the grand scheme of things, I’ve been so blessed with healthy children. I’ve given birth to six children, and only had one in the nicu. I know other moms who have had all of their children spend time there. And for a longer time than I am whining about.
So, I wouldn’t mind if you all keep this hormonal post partum mama in your prayers.
Oh, sweetie. Know that you're in my prayers, and precious Emily too. She's in good hands there, and you want her well when she gets home. Love, love, love you all.
You know our prayers are ALWAYS with you… HUGSKristinPS email/phone call to come soon
Prayers sweety. Emily will be a fighter, she is just doing things on her own time.
Sorry to hear that.
Just know that in the end, it's for the best.
My husband and I both bawled our eyes out when we had to leave the twins at the NICU.
There is a reason your body's gestation is normally 41+ weeks. Claire is the only one of mine born before 41 weeks (due to my own selfish stupidity) and she's the only one who had jaundice. Looking back, it makes me angry that my doctor offered the induction in the first place.
So sorry to hear that. I wouldn't have come close to crying I would have cried.
We'll be praying for Emily and all of you.
Nancy
First, CONGRATULATIONS! I'm catching up on posts and, wow, yours certainly took the cake. I'm so happy for you, how wonderful to know they are both healthy. Little Emily will be fine, I'm certain of it. Will be thinking about you!
oh Pam. Don't worry I would've cried for sure. After watching my sister have 3 babies in the NICU I have witnessed firsthand how hard leaving your baby in the NICU can be. Just be thankful that she is healthy and able to come home in a relatively short time. Your two princesses will be home together soon I'm sure. Hang in there. S.Kimball
You (and ALL your children and the Rev-especially Emily though) are in my prayers. My mom had a c-section with my sister and she refused to leave the hospital until my sister was allowed to go home after jaundice problems. Her doctor fixed the paperwork to allow insurance to allow her to stay. I can't imagine how difficult it would be to go home with one of my children still there. She's in really good hands and it sounds like even if she wasn't allowed to come home today (or tomorrow or the next day…) that in the grand scheme of things it will be SOON! I didn't even have complications and I stayed in the hospital with Lamb 3 for 4 days. She hasn't really been out of the womb that long yet. Elizabeth will be so excited to have her womb mate back when Emily comes home. Try to take your best care of yourself and Elizabeth right now because life will get even busier when Emily comes home. Hugs and prayers.
Could it be healthy healing to bring Elizabeth to the hospital while you visit Emily? Maybe they need each other. You are all in my thoughts Pam.
It is what you make of it. All 3 of mine had to spend time in the NICU. Alyssa 6 days, Alex 3 weeks, 2 days, Andy 4 weeks, 2 days. I didn't even get to hold the boys until several days after they were born. OK, let me re-phrase. The nurse couldn't believe that I hadn't held them. She said I could but would have to be extremely careful because the IV was in their belly button. One of the best places for an IV but also the most fragile. I told her I would wait. As much as I wanted to hold my little guys, I knew I would have a lifetime of love from them that a few more days wouldn't hurt. I didn't want to do anything that would put them in harms way and make them stay there any longer. Don't get me wrong, I wanted to hold my precious little ones but… Anyway, just make the best of it. I know you will. I see you have already! I'm so happy for you!!
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