The Silver Lining

It was a tough motherhood week last week. The boys were very busy, the girls were teething and then ill. I had to be a grown up more than I wanted to. Some days I feel like I am teaching and reteaching and then reteaching again with the kids.

It can get frustrating.

This week I made three last minute grocery store trips. Elizabeth managed to lock herself into her room, and then also managed to lock her and I into another room the next day. I still need to get to the hardware store to buy new door knobs, currently most of the doors have no knobs. . .which makes it tough to block twins from getting into off limits rooms.

Needless to say, yesterday I was tired. And I was cranky. I was looking forward to getting out on a play date with friends. And then, a crabby toddler crawled up on my lap, popped her thumb into her mouth and fell asleep.

So I sat. And I rocked her. I nuzzled her fuzzy head and told her about all of the dreams I have for her. I whispered about how I wondered how she would look. I told her how I was afraid to mother one daughter let alone two. I savored her weight in my lap, her sticky warmth. I was just present.

Later that afternoon, Elizabeth was taking a second nap (she has a cold, hence the crabbiness). Emily was restless, but not wanting to go to bed. Finally I pulled her onto my lap. She put her little head on my shoulder and we rocked. I repeated all of the things I told her sister. I nibbled her little ear. And then she fell asleep. She NEVER falls asleep on my lap.

I savored it all.

Everyone has bad days, even bad weeks. However, there is nearly always a silver lining. God gives us glimpses of the good amidst the hard times. It is funny how even a sick toddler can make my day!

Chime in! What has been your silver lining this week? Sometimes they are hard to find, sometimes easier! You know I’d love to hear from you!

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About the author : Dakotapam

I’m a Lutheran pastor’s wife and mom to six kids, including toddler twin girls. My life is sometimes normal, and sometimes crazy; but through it all, I know that I am blessed! Some people say that I have my hands full, I prefer to call it living life with both hands full, and I love it!

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  1. Sue - September 24, 2011 Reply

    When my boys were little, and it had been a horrific day, I would go into their rooms after they were asleep and marvel how such an angelic-looking child could have been such a monster! I would even take their pictures, to have reminders of how sweet they looked! When my older boy was in trouble, my younger boy would all but hold up a sign saying “see how good I am?” He could not be sweet or good enough if his brother was in trouble. Had I not been so mad at his brother, it would have been funny. My Mom said my brothers and I did that, too. My older son, if I was yelling at him (did I really do that?), would look up at me (and that was a LONG time ago as he passed me up at age 11) and say “Mom, I love you”. That certainly deflated any anger I had!

    What sweet moments you had! That’s what keeps us going! May the Lord bless you with patience!

  2. Katie - September 24, 2011 Reply

    Life is hectic and I try to find the silver lining in the moments I can. I just try to keep in mind that “this too shall pass!” Love your attitude. You’re a rock star Mom!

  3. Natalie - September 24, 2011 Reply

    What a sweet story, thanks for sharing it! My son who is 3 never falls asleep in my arms either, but if he did I know it would be a moment GOD knew I needed! My silver lining this week was in regards to my MIL. I realized that all this time I have been desperately seeking the mother I wanted for me (hence was hoping my MIL could be that), that GOD wanted me to work on the Mother he gave me! And giving me the gift of motherhood opened that door for myself and my Mother, 3 years ago. So this week my silver lining was thanking GOD for showing that to me!

    • Dakotapam - September 24, 2011 Reply

      God’s plans are always better than our plans! Sometimes I wish he was a bit more straightforward in showing us the plans, but I think our blindness gets in the way as well. Thank you for sharing.

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